An old song that you know by heart

My mouth and toes are problematic. Know why?
Last week, I had this super fruper big aching ulcer on the left side of my lower jaw. It hindered my speech and eating/drinking habits. Late this week, after the ulcer on the left side of my lower jaw disappeared, another grow on the right side of my lower jaw. At first, it was just some small thing then it grew bigger. On Thursday, before piano, I went to my grandma’s house and she told me to put salt on the ulcer and since it was really killing my whole mouth, I did. and let me tell you, oh my geese it was asfgjhdgusdbfghb OUCH. I put the salt on it, and they reacted and my grandma said must rub the salt on my ulcer. I tried and I screamed, jumped, hopped. That night, the ulcer became smaller but the next morning, it returned to its original size. Great, I screamed and hopped and jumped for nothing. I’m never looking forward to meal times now.

Then yesterday, during math lesson I was like moving my tongue in my mouth. I know it sounds weird here, but I always do that, like move it to the left then right. My tongue met my cheek wall and guess what, my cheek wall was tearing! I was so sure that it was tearing! There was this skin-like-cell-like thing, which when I move it up and down, it followed. It was light, probably translucent, like loose cheek cells formed together, ready to go on strike and pull itself out from my cheek. Doesn’t it just sound so painful and yeah, gross. That’s the story of my mouth this week, and although that cheek thing is gone, that stupid, fat, white ulcer is unfortunately having a time of its life torturing my mouth. I’m never looking forward to meal times now.

My big toe. Yesterday morning, when I woke up I felt pain at the big toe, like some bruise, just that it didn’t look like one. It was just a little more red than normal and I thought maybe it was a mosquito bite, so I scratched it. It wasn’t itchy, so it can’t be that (looks like the talk I had with those mosquitoes worked!) I asked my mum and dad they said it was swollen. So there, now my ability to walk is also hindered. Aiya, ulcers and swollen toes aren’t enjoyable at all): I just rubbed some medication on it and I realise it actually resembles like a big bruise!:o Pain pain! I’m going to consider wearing slippers to school tomorrow.

Thanks Esther, Wanyi, Rebecca, Mei and Yvette(: I haven’t done that over math for a long time, and I knew, like what Rebecca said, I really cannot get used to failing tests and all, it will just let my grades drop into the the deepest valley. I still remember the feeling I have each time I got back math results and it was really a sense of helplessness and I’m not going to let myself to that state again.

I don’t know how to describe this week, but it was different. There was only one test but I felt more tired as compared to weeks that were packed with tests. It’s like a mental thing, mental tiredness. Ah yes, that sounds like a good term to describe this(: I had another cat encounter on Thursday night. It made my stomach and intestines tie up together like those plaits the cute girls have and my face was cringed up like a old, rotten, sour plum! There were 2 black cats and one of which, I WITNESSED, was playing with a dead mouse D: yuckky yuckky yucks. How I hate mice and cats. How I wish they didn’t have to be on the same planet that I’m on, even though I know they are part of the food chain, but still, how could they!

I just conveniently spent half an hour on this post talking about toes, mouth, cats and mice, how lovely(:

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Yumin]
LIM YUMIN! YOU ARE COMING BACK IN SEPTEMBER?:D Of course, you love me, if you don’t love me, then there must be something wrong. Neway, cats are gross ttm and don’t you give me a cat, I’ll just throw it back. Oh wait, I won’t even want to lay my hands on it. So you can give me candies instead(:

Nicole the awesome]
I’m awesomeerr(: nonono, they are not ’cause they bully me! & I heard you got into vjip, congrats!

Where there is love, there is hope.

We shot the moon.

Bern lent me “Sundays at Tiffany’s” on Friday ’cause i just saw it on her table and the title sounded so vaguely familiar, so I decided to bring it home and have a read. Turn out that the book was okay-ish, not really something that I would have picked up from the book shelves by myself. Though, I got this really sweet line from it “Love means you’ll never be apart”. Thanks anyway, Bernice Lim! & Don’t pretend, you still owe me my birthday present while I owe you your letter and geese, your birthday is coming up!:D

My brother’s downright gross, he just friggin’ threw his smelly socks onto the study table where I was just now, like right under my very nose! He and his un-kickable habit of throwing his smelly socks onto the study table and when I ask him to bring it down and dump it in the laundry basket, it’s always the perpetual answer of “later”. Very irritating leh. I think using singlish to end of something has that added and needed emphasis.

Okay, even my bro’s gross to this extent, he was nice enough to save me from my frightful encounter on Thursday after piano lesson. I was on my way home when I met this furry, fluff-balled living thing with a proud name of-CAT. I was actually chased by it, and it meowed at me with it’s mouth gradually opening like a crescendo and I could see it’s long sharp horrible teeth. At the sound of it’s meow, I literally cringed and gave it a disgusting look. Although it was white, it wasn’t pretty at all; even if the cat was in rainbow colours, it still wouldn’t have appealed to me at all. I was thinking of ways to flee from it, I actually felt trapped ’cause it kept circling me. First, it was walking behind me, then beside me then in front of me! How I wished I had wings so I could fly and ’cause it didn’t have wings, it obviously can’t fly after me! But I thought of a more practical and realistic idea which was to call home. My bro picked up the phone, and I was half screaming into it and I screamed at it to ask him to come and save me from a cat! Before he came, I think the cat was going to attempt to lick me (OH MY GEESE), so I screamed! Quite loudly in fact, but I don’t know why no one heard me, but neway, the cat was probably scared, so it stopped and stared at me and I took advantage of its state of shock and walked off rapidly. Then I saw my brother, gosh, at that time, he was like light at the end of the tunnel and how grateful I am for that! I started recounting the whole thing to my brother, and I bet half the time he was rolling his eyes and giving me that diao look, but Tan Xuan, it’s alright! Thanks for coming:D Hah, this are what siblings are for what, right! When I was safely home, I recounted the whole thing to mummy and papa, and my mum was just laughing and my dad was giving me this “WHATTTT, it’s just a stupid cat” face.

& now, I’m having phobia of walking up that lane when I come home. How laugh-able but blame the cat, not me. Pfft but now thinking back, I think it’s quite funny:D School this week was packeddd but was still manageable and PE was like the funniest thing that could ever happened. We should have taped down everything that happened, we were all having laughing fits/spasm man! Even Miss Lim, told us that it was interesting and funny watching us play softball! HAHA, I LOVE PE:D

WHO WANTS TO BUY COOKIES? GUIDES ARE SELLING COOKIES, SO COME BUY FROM ME:D I desperately need more orders! I was flipping through my hand book and I realised that it’s so messy ’cause mei and esther like filled it up with so much crap. OH MY GEESE, I want revenge:D & the not very nice thing that I found out was like eoys are another 3-4 weeks away:o That’s hot shocking news, so bye! Did I mention this before, but I really love jason mraz songssss and their lyrics are sweet and meaningful!

if we just try try try

just to be ni-ni-nice

then the world would be a better place for you and I

if we just live our lives

putting our differences aside

oh that would be so beautiful to me

[Surprisingly, the first verse has the word, CAT, how prettily ironic.]

Cross my heart.

Actually, I wanted to let this blog rot away. There are so many things happening and it’s tough to keep track of everything on the blog and by the time i get home, I’m either in front of my study notes or burying my head into my comfy pillow for some good old sleep or just stoning/slacking away;D But thennn, today, I felt obliged to come back here and do something with it! And I’m gonna do it in the form of pictures ’cause posting pictures seems to be something that I would do to a about-to-rot blog!:D snapped some shots when making sushi on national day!

They were super duper fruper-ly cute and yummy, well that’s of course, I made them!

I think capturing such moments with the use of the camera is intriguing yet simple. The fact is, we also capture our own little pictures with our eyes the moment we were born; when images and memories of all the little baby steps we took to be where are who we are now. As years go by, we grow older and we experience more and nonetheless, our brain still remembers it. We grow to an age of 80 and the brain still continues to keep those good old memories and bring in new ones. It seems like the brain has an endless capacity of storage, no definite size. I don’t know what I’m trying to say by typing all this, but I like it that all living things have the ability to remember all their beautiful memories in their life.

I watched this movie once, where this woman had some brain disorder and her memory would only last a day, which means that, whatever and whoever she meets today, would be forgotten tomorrow, including her family and her lover. But, her lover never gave up loving her, everyday he would have to re-enact the scene of how they first met and then somehow, get married in that day, and eventually, they had a daughter. In a way, it was a sad situation, but they never thought of it as a sad one, but more of finding happiness amidst all of the odds against them(: The feeling of typing something here again, feels rather good(: