We’re a picture in my mind

My brother has been really kind enough to loan his computer to me since mine’s cranky(: Again.D: He’s nice but to a certain extent, since I’m only given 20 mins to stick my butt on the swivel in front of his computer so this shall be a quickie post.
I realise that I like to take my blog titles from certain meaningful/random lines off a song that I’m listening to. Today’s song is I Will Remember You by Ryan Cabrera. A good singer ’cause I like his songs. Simple, nice, sweet.

Guides camp.
It was really awesome. I don’t exactly know how to put my feelings down in words but I’m really thankful for the fact that we had camp this year. Even though it was extended by one more day, it was all worthwhile. First thinking that I wouldn’t pull through because of all the physical torture that I would be put through but when it ended, you don’t know just how much I learn from it. I don’t know what’s the difference between this year’s camp and the other years, but for once, I really dare to say that I truly enjoyed myself and it made me think alot. A thought provoking camp which made me reflect about these 3 years in SNGG and everything; all those ups and downs. I find myself slowly, very slowly getting that feeling stirred up in me, something that I never felt last time, at that time. Subconsciously, that feeling sneaks into me like a thief, robbing all those unhappiness and dislike away and putting in place, admiration, joyfulness, appreciation and passion.

It’s just weird how some feelings just get into you at this point of time and not at another. Sometimes, it comes late, like an unpunctual friend who made you wait at the bus stop for 1/2 an hour. Just that time difference of having that feeling affects decisions, important decisions that you make. You got that feeling before? I feel awkwardly uncomfortable feeling and sensing that feeling ’cause I know that I’m not allowed/supposed to feel that way at this time. I really do. Yeah, that’s guides camp. There was definitely fun, adventure, patrol-cool-thing (EXCALIBUR) and all sorts. I just thought that my biggest takeaway was that, all those feelings and stuff. It was probably too overwhelming to see it all come soaring back to me. But like what Tracy said, it’s an experience that very few would get to know. Bad experience, decision making true, but at the end of the day, I know it pulled me through and made me stronger. I mean, we always get stronger each time when we hit setbacks right. The harder this setback make you fall, the stronger you get and I think I really can’t deny that. Well, aren’t I in the process of that now? I gotta really thank Tracy for helping me through all this, Thanks Tracy<3 It’s really time to pick myself up, move on and concentrate on the other important happenings in my life now. For example, my dreaded and horrendous studies. (June holidays weren’t kind to my physical and mental health at all.)

Job attachment.
Today was the first day with SMRT.
It was quite a fine day today. Jessica and Lydia, the 2 people working there who are suppose to be “looking after” us during this week, turn out to be really nice and witty humans(: This job thingy is another good experience. The fact that the holidays are coming to an end and so far, all that’s gone has been swallowed up by the time monster and the last week of the holidays is for job attachment so I’m basically left with no time to have time with myself and other humans. Studying’s another issue too. But yeah, we weren’t really very excited for it, but I think after the first day, it doesn’t seem that bad(: Funny and retarded things happened today but due to the limited time that I’m given, I shan’t elaborate further!

Oh, ai sent me this message about going to some website an voting for schools to be closed for another week due to H1N1 and according to the message, it seems like it’s on the the channel news asia webpage, unless I got it wrong. hahah. This is a long post and I wanna put a picture up but all of them is still with wenting and ai, so yeah, gotta wait!

Quick Tag Replies:
Ashley]
Please, you are the one that doesn’t make ALL THE SENSE IN THE WORLD. Just look at what you wrote and you will know what I’m talking about:D Tsk, what mothballs!

Tay]
Hey! Mhm, of course you gotta feel touched. I really blogged ’cause you asked me too you know! Love you too, GIRAFFE<3

Alex]
I’m serious! I really do like it, so sweet and yummy!

How you remind me.

MUAH CHEE/MUA JI!
My awesome awesome ah ma made muah chee/mua ji for me!:D
She’s such a fantastic ah ma.
She always seem to come at the right times when I’m feeling sad and stressed and frustrated and tired to give me my favourite food to calm my disturbed and distraught soul.

Thank you ah ma!(:

Oh boy, since I’ve already started a little of posting then I should just continue.
This week was as usual, busy. Busy with going to school, busy with guides, busy with homework, busy with piano, busy with everything else except sleep. I feel sleep deprived even when it’s the holidays.
But today, was a little different(: The stuff that I did today, were more lighthearted and not stress inducing and other stuff. Oh shoots, the blister on my finger just burst ’cause I was jabbing it a few minutes ago. yucks.

Neway, it was green house props-making in the morning with Eunice. She’s downright retarded and she laughs at all the things that she’s not suppose to and stones at all the things that she’s suppose to laugh at. Crapped and laughed and played with those green feathers. hahah.

Afternoon, was spent with tay the giraffe doing cip at NKF.
The bus ride there was freaky and scary and traumatising. Yes, very traumatising. There was this really weird person that constantly looked and smiled at us. At first, we, being friendly people, said hi and smiled back. But after a while, that person just kept smiling and smiling and staring and staring. & this was when we got a little scared. We thought that he was going to stalk us, then we thought. What if he alights at the same bus stop as us or what if he just started following us or what if he does something? Then giraffe and I were thinking of ways to “attack” this person if he ever comes near us. But in the end, he alighted the stop before us and we really heaved a sigh of relief. It was like “Oh, Thank God.” HAHAHAH. ohoh, then there was this really weird couple beside giraffe. That’s another hilarious story, which I don’t feel like telling(:

Both of our eyes were losing out of control after sitting down, staring at the computer, keying in data information for 3 an a half hours. Imagine that stiffness and ache-ness in your back when you stand up. I’m never going to do a desk bound job. It’ll kill me and drive me to nuts. When we entered the lift, giraffe had this sudden desire to take pictures of our reflections in the mirror. The lift had mirrors. Cool eh. But since, we were going down from the 5th floor, there wasn’t much time since I didn’t get my phone out yet. So I asked giraffe to press the “open lift doors” button, get out of the lift and get everything ready first.

When the lift came again, we stepped in and giraffe went “Let’s go all the way up to the highest level so we will have alot more time” HAHAHAHA, that was really funny funny funny! Tay was really funny, her expression then was just so…priceless.

Giraffe requested me to blog about this awesome day with her and yeah, I just did. Ain’t I obedient?:D TAY QI HONG, THANK YOU FOR TODAY:D

The shoe swopping pair(:

Now, it’s time to get busy with guides stuff again. Oh gosh, the worries are flooding me again D: CHILL CHILL CHILL. I think I’ll go get an ice cube to chill offfffff.

Pig intestines.

My tummy’s really in a great deal of pain.
I
HATE
PIG
INTESTINES.
I’m never going near it ever again. forever.

The weather’s crap. Crappy crap.

There goes the first week of holidays. Isn’t it fast? Fast as lightening. Things just happen and come by so fast that they disappear so fast too.

I’m stuck at e.geog graded. It seems so difficult to comprehend the figure of a cross section of a river channel that has been “produced by a computer based upon fieldwork measurements”. What the poo.
I’m not following my timetable. And that’s really bad. It’s not motivation that I’m losing, it’s just that everytime when I try to follow it, something unexpected crops up and it disrupts my whole schedule of homework for that day. The homework’s just being pushed back day after day, accumulating enough to build a hill.
But at least for today, I feel accomplished!:D Finally, managed to buy the cloth and get those meal bags. The only missing thing now is their ponchos and I have to go all the way to the army market at bras basah to get them. That’s totally good news for me man.

The most awesome thing that happened today was that I got to the textile shop at yishun without getting lost:D It seems like a really small thing to the street smarts, but for me, who has negligible sense of direction, is a great big thing! At first, I thought I was lost ’cause I was worried that I wouldn’t stop at the right stop but when I reached, I knew all my worries were just so uncalled for. The next most awesome thing was that I met up with vanes, after such a long time!:D vanes sim, you should be feeling so honoured now and if you are not then something must be awfully wrong. Met at plaza sing’s daiso to get their meal bags. There’s actually a direct bus that goes there from yishun. Is that cool or what! And I really love long bus rides, I reflected quite alot(: Actually, it’s more of stoning. Whatever it is, I enjoyed it.
We actually didn’t made any plans before to meet up, it was all last minute, but I’m glad that we could really meet, even if it was just that few hours(:
Had lunch and it was also the first time that I ate “kuey chap”(however you spell it) with pig intestines. The noodles stuff was not too bad, so were the taugua and the rest on the plate EXCEPT for the pig intestines D: I think it’s because I ate the pig intestines that’s causing my tummy to feel weird now. But I think lunch was still good!

Our talk during lunch was dense. I don’t know why but we weren’t talking about crap and retarded and weird and funny etc stuff like we usually do. We were really talking about. our lives? what’s happening? It’s like 2 good ‘ol friends meeting after a really long time and trying to catch up with the latest updates of the other friend’s life kind of thing. I think we were reflecting and sometimes, I really do like it(: Yeah, you get the idea.

No matter how reluctant I was, I still took the mrt home ’cause I couldn’t find any other way to get home and the moment I got onto the train, I regretted it. I felt nauseous all over and I really don’t like the train. It feels trapped and suffocating. It’s weird to feel that way even when the train’s not crowded, but I still feel it. & that just explains why I don’t like taking trains and not daring to take trains on my own. Rah, it sounds stupid but everyone has their own weird fears now and then, & mine’s just the stupid train thing!
My stomach’s still acting funny and it’s like a big fat balloon. If I was a balloon, let me fly away, far far away.